No taxation without representation.

Sometimes I feel as though people have forgotten that the president is supposed to be our ultimate leader/figure head of our country. We fought to secure our freedoms and representation, but what do we want to represent?

Solely, I represent advancement, the search and sewing of truths and words, the new day and the development of a more efficient and self sustainable life. As a nation, we are represented by the spreading of lies of others, hate and distasteful comments. We show our eagerness to continue as we alway have without any regard for our past or our future. We stumble blindly forward, hoping that in four years another white Protestant male will come to the rescue and end our struggles.

As a nation, we collectively expect everyone else to make our problems dissipate, as we continuously add to them. Again we blame our precious representation, and applaud the men who say that they can do better. My only wish is for someone to say something more than, "I am better, and he is horrible". I would love to hear someone debate about issues that are relevant to our lives in a legitimate Socratic style debate. I want to dig deeper. I want to explore all of the ideas to know if they would benefit my nation and life.

I recently heard on the news reports of people's comments regarding republican candidates after casting their primary votes. Those who were against a specific candidate had many reason that they would never vote for him, even if he won the primaries. Those that voted for him had no specific reason for preferring him per the other candidates other than just hating the others, and many claimed they only vote for him based on the belief that he would become more conservative once in office.

I don't believe that we should just throw in whoever and hope for the best. I want to hold out for something better. I know that my country has the capacity for greatness, but the complexity of our government and culture has reached the point of handicapping our growth.







I am voting for Canada.

Interpersonal Relationships.

I've felt more recently that I am incapable of forming a proper interpersonal relationship with another being. In all senses, I have a constant distance to those around me. I am listening, but I'm not listening. I am laughing, but I'm not laughing. I am engaging and attentive, but.......

Limerence: an involuntary state of mind which seems to result from a romantic attraction to another person combined with an overwhelming, obsessive need to have one's feelings reciprocated.

Overwhelming? Obsessive? I don't know if I'd take it THAT far, buuttt....

Note 1

Sometimes I just really need to write. I have so much to say but never anyone to talk to (at least that is interested in listening). I've found that I punish myself for thinking. To myself in my head I think as though I am wasting time that could be spent producing. In reality, in all of our minds, is it better to dream and wish and think, or is it ideal to work and push constantly to improve and go further? It's ironic to me that is think one should naturally go with the other. Is this wrong? Should I not think and not dream to further myself and improve my capabilities through reflection? Yet subconsciously I know I will torment myself when i catch myself idly thinking. Idle hands are the devils helpers (or something kitschy like that). I have also noticed that I am uncomfortable in my pronunciation of nearly all words which leads to the hindrance of my verbal communication skills. Typing or writing, I am vocabularily blessed through years of reading, studying, observation and perfecting. Vocally, I am insurmountably stunted by my lack of mid-frequency hearing as well as unsatisfactory speech therapy teachers provided by the St. Johns county school district.

I could never handle a romantic.

Is it too much to ask to be hit in the face every once in a while? To be grabbed and commanded?
I like men. Men that are men.
Do you like Plato? And do you comprehend the Socratic Method?
Congratulations, but can you change a tire? Locate a distributor cap? Lift a refrigerator?
Yes, I'm sorry, but this is important. Your mind is lovely and your words are well, but I need something more that a conversation.
I need pheromones. I need to know my place. I need you to "keep your pimp hand strong".
I know, I am disgusting. I am stereotypical, predictable. I am raw primal instincts, but what are you?
A boy who can't live without ionic bonds or the Golden Girls. A boy that doesn't do his taxes and plans for zombie invasions.
I guarantee you wouldn't last a zombie invasion,
If you are afraid of spiders.
I'm a fan of the hunter/gatherer type. Have you ever shot a gun? Can you pitch a tent?
Yes, a real tent. In the wilderness. Where you could potentially be mauled by wild animals.
What would you do with a wild animal? Pet it? Feed it trail mix?
I bet you would. I bet our camp would be infested with bears.
Sensitive boy, please give me something better. Please tell me that it gets better than this. Please! Be better than this!